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You planted thorns in my chest with hands I once trusted, and now every breath feels like an apology I shouldn’t owe.

-Larson Langston

January 20, 2025​​​

i wish we were friends again…

​I never deleted my discord stuff because I didn’t want you to see it. I knew you would. I was deleting  myself. The funny thing is. You told me you were going off discord the first time and you told me how you had watched me message you and saw all of them.

Then, this last time you told me you saw stuff I wrote, even though you weren't talking to me at that time. Do you ever consider the things you say?

​So tired of throwing up all the time. These meds have made me both anorexic and bulimic. lol​

I’m so fucking tired of being alive.​

God, I wish I had died back when I tried to kill myself. When was that… oh yeah… after the last time I talked to you… oh wait.. sorry.. when I talked to your… back… I went home and a short time later I swallowed a whole bottle of pills. lol just imagine if the last time I “talked” to you (your back) was the same day I died. lol Would you have cared? No, I don't think you would. I know you don’t give a flying fuck about me. You probably wish now that I had succeeded right? lol ​Why am I such a bad person for wanting to talk to you?Why do I always fuck everything up?Why do you hate me?
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