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You planted thorns in my chest with hands I once trusted, and now every breath feels like an apology I shouldn’t owe.

-Larson Langston

January 9, 2025

Bryan and I are high and we’re saying stupid stuff. We were naming an iPhone “curved scroll” and I said “squirrel scroll”. lol so we made a tongue twister, “the scurvy curvy squirrel scroll”. lol we said a lot of other stupid stuff but it’s too weird and I’m high so I don’t remember either. lol we were laughing way too much. Wish I could tell you about it. 
 
Random thought… it must be weird to be an actor. 
 
I talked to my parents the other day about everything and my mom mentioned how I used to get notes from other kids at school telling me they hated me and would not be friends with me. It’s made things so much worse. I didn’t remember.
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I don’t know what to do. Why am I alive in a world that hates me?
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I try to be a nice person. A good person. But still everyone hates me.
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Everyone hates me. I don’t have any friends.

Had a really bad day yesterday. Cut myself worse than before. We considered going to go get stitches but since it is suspicious, we decided not to. It didn’t bleed much, just really deep. I just hate myself so much.

I’m so sorry, whatever I did…. I’m sorry….
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